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Monday, October 30, 2006 { 10:58 PM }

went to the doc this morning...
guess what he prescribed me?
relaxants....
one for the morning and one for night-time(to help me sleep)
whoa....
perhaps sometime later he would be prescribing me anti-depressant.
muahahahahahahahaha.....

Sunday, October 29, 2006 { 10:20 PM }

was supposed to be working full today, but i got fever. sheesh~! cant earn my 54 bucks today.
sobz....
slept my entire day away coz my head is always hurting...
dont think i can sleep much later tonight... hmmm...

Thursday, October 26, 2006 { 10:31 PM }

ponned lab today coz i decided that i dont wanna be in the same place at the same time with him. HEE....
dont worry peeps, i'm gg for make up lab coming tues.
anyway, the indian lecturer's accent is abit too much for me to take as well... tues' lecturer is a chinese...
no i have absolutely nothing against indians. just that this indian lecturer has too strong an indian accent for me to take.
all along in hostel now... sheryl is back home. haiz.......
shall bug bf to chat with me until i fall aslp....
ok, i'm kidding...
it's always the other way around.. he's always the one who falls aslp first. GRR....

{ 1:59 PM }

now i'm even more sure my assumptions are correct.... you're just pissed that you cant get any benefits out of me as your IMAGINED study buddy.
*nods*
prickly prickly...prickly heat... i used to love using that powder....
muahahahahahahaha...

{ 1:30 AM }

got into another quarrel with him again this afternoon... Sa totally sian diao when i told her roughly what has happened.
wanna noe?
ok... here goes...
it's his off day together and we agreed to meet for lunch la...
so by ard 1 plus, he called and asked me where i wanna have lunch which i totally have NO idea. Guys, please dont ask ur gf what she wanna eat. it would give you hell... at least that's the case for me. when i ask him to think, i wld go with anything he says.... and i mean it. but dunno why he just dont wanna think of what to eat la. so i was like "hurry up and decide la. drag any longer might as well dont meet for lunch le." it was already 2 plus 3 by then... then he got angry and replied: dont meet den dont meet la! then he ignored me. -_-"
but i'm determined not to be ignored. what else i got from him was: you're always throwing da xiao jie pi qi. break la! ERRRRR...... i only said if we drag any longer might as well dont meet for lunch lor... what kinda da xiao jie pi qi is that? damn pissed la.... was thinking to myself that i dont wanna get this kinda tantrums from him anymore.... somehow i was rather determined to end it once and for all... and so i asked to meet him coz i have something impt to say and it's better for me to say it now than later. in the end he came down to boonlay to find me and from the mrt station to jp and one round around jp and out to the outside of the building, i totally ignored him. then we stood outside jp for a good 15 minutes or more without speaking to each other. or should i say, i refused to answer him and refused to look at him. hmm... dunno why. i was really determine to tell him that i dont want such a petty bf and i was ready to accept all the consequences of saying that to him. but somehow the moment i saw him i didnt know what to say already. SIGHS....
felt like crying right there and then and i've tried my best not to already. yeah, tried my best..... the moment i turned to look at him, tears started to fall and i totally like, hugged him and cried la! sighz.... i'm such a failure. crying is weak! *bangs head against wall* then he was like "ok, you win. You're the Queen ok? It's all my fault...." BUT... i ignored him again and continued to cry... sheesh~! but it's ok... we're alright now... hee...

25th october.... i guess this is the first time i've allowed myself to cry in front of another person...
first time... first time... sighs...

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 { 1:21 PM }

it really amazes me how someone can contradict herself to such an extent. since when you heard(or read) me saying i hope to piss her off? you're just assuming me to think that way(like what you've been doing ever since this dumb shit started). once again, pls do not make silly assumptions and unfair judgements. it's just so not wise to do that. i'm being calm when i'm telling you this... if you wld ever read this or ever believe what you're reading.... i dunno how the hell you got that assumption... or perhaps you had an angry mind in self denial to start off with. *shrugs* most girls like to say aloud that they're not angry when they actually are... lol... that's why alot of my guy friends say i'm too man to be a girl so i'm more of a gay guy. wadeva~! *rolls eyes madly* i pretend not to be angry when in fact i am. that's different style.
anyway, heard something from jamie that really set my eyebrows into one continuous line. hahaha... can you imagine it? ok, i was exaggerating. it was just a frown. BOO.
'heard that you will STORM away from people out of the blue'.
hmmm.... wait a min, isnt it the other way round? and i'm someone with light steps due to dance. i DO NOT STORM. wadeva lor... now i really doubt your intentions....
'in hope to help me somehow?'
are you sure he was feeling that way? sorry if he really did. i didnt sense that at all... coz a normal person would choose to be open to that particular person he/she felt needed help in as he/she seeks help from another friend concurrently. i noe this is a super complicated sentence, hope you will get what i mean. if he's really intending in helping me(when i dunno why), he shld be acting in this way. but no... do you really know what he did? he was the one who started seeing through me first; leaving before i realised he was gone and etc. and i reckon as he was doing that to me, he went to you and started complaining or perhaps as you would put it, informing, you about whatever i've done which has made him buay song. now, does this sounds like he really wanna help me? if it does then fine, i have nothing more to say. but to any normal person, it would not.
explain yourself if you want, it's all up to you. but to tell you first i'm not interested in hearing you defend youself. i've learn from this incident that sticking to our own assumptions and judgements at the expense of others' feelings is much easier for ourselves, right?

anyway, on a lighter note. had settled all the differences with ms tan last night. =) seems like she's been reading too much from my blog when actually the subsequent entries aint meant for her. all thanks to some people who perhaps, thought that she's being nice and trying to talk sense when all she did was simply adding fuel to fire. chatted with her until 12 plus 1am last night. and by the time i got off the line, i still havent bathe(and reek of sushi smell as according to ms tan)... hey, but dont u wish to eat more sushi? MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... now have i succeeded in killing all your unwanted cravings for sushi? *grins* after i bathed and waited for my hair to dry, it was already 2 plus am. guess what time i woke up? 530am. PENGZ.... hahaha... nvm, nvm... meeting bf later. but i have a feeling that he's still sleeping now. why? coz he's a pig. a combination of human and pig.... think i'm evil to say that of my bf? nah, i'm nice enough to say tt already.... he says i'm a combination of pig and mouse. blardie hell!
oh btw, lessons turned out to be better that i had expected it to be. *girns*

Tuesday, October 24, 2006 { 3:46 PM }

muahahahaha.... i love it when some freaks cant get their facts right and make a fool of themselves....
just in case you dunno, engin students in ntu DO take communication modules. It's called EFFECTIVE COMMUNICATION. Didn't YOUR FRIEND tell you that before you make such a dumb and useless advice? LOL.... btw, i dont think you would be interested to know this, but i got either a B+ or an A for tt... *grins*
hmm... i dunno if you realised this. but i've realised it. it's human nature to be selfish. so dont be so naive and believe everything that someone you thought is your friend tells you. tt's why for so many years, i've only listened and seldom pass on the words. you cant be sure if those words were altered in any ways. not trying to blame anyone... but as i've said, it's human nature to be so. we all wanna get MORE FRIENDS to shoot back the person who has shot you right? Muahahahaha... ok, i'll not be so general... MOST CHILDISH PEOPLE WOULD. OS: to think that she would use the word childish when phrase like: i have more than enough people here to shoot you back.... reminds me of pri sch life! you know? "I don't wanna friend you anymore!" Muahahahaha... wat a joke! (OS meaning it's my own RANDOM thought so you can happily ignore it....) so i guess most people cant help it but make certain inferences of their own when they relate something to the others. hmm.... i sincerely hope that those silly inferences are just in hope of harnessing more shooters on their side(this is more of human nature) than to be sure that his/her victim suffers as bad as he/she can get(this would be a murderer's nature).
i admit, when i related the story of project/quiz thingy to my friend, i simply used quiz instead of project when actually i knew it's project. but hey, do i look as if i would give a damn about quizzes? well, i did when i was in first yr. but in the second year i heck care, because someone whom i thought was a friend gave me an advice: quizzes are for copying lor, you dunno meh! yeah... now i'm damn sorry for myself that i believed him. sheesh! anyway, the key point of that issue is not proj or quiz wadeva shit. it's 'aiya, i tell you you also dunno' and what took place after that sentence that counts.
oh nvm, i shall not touch more on that thing since he's your friend and no matter what your *wadeva* mind would choose to believe him... i shall just give him the benefit of doubt that he has caught selective amnesia to think that he has been a very very very nice guy... *shrugs*
and with the 'is she doing something decent' thing. that is like HUH? it was nothing but a lame joke. hahaha... i was actually laughing to myself when i typed tt sms... but since he cldnt get it, nvm. but one thing i've realised. 'is she doing something decent' is not a joke but like something insulting? and sunny rainy thingy is a nice joke! whoa... it seems like we're on super different frequencies. and people on diff frequency shldnt mix ard for their own good. or maybe, he was being angry on the behalf of that crappy tutor who wld ask someone whom has just stepped into the tut room a millisecond ago whether or not he has signed the attendance when she was holding on to the attendance sheet as she asked that qn?
and pls, stop copying my manner of sarcasm and putting it up in ur blog as ur own. why? coz it doesnt fit. i mean, the situation doesnt fit. i shall be more specific for your sake... haha... no i'm not saying anything about intelligence. it's the 'comments on MY FRIEND' issue. do you people even know how my friend called Sa looks like? do you? *sniggers* so dont try to link two things together when they dont fit... it's not wise for you to do that...
actually, somehow i know i'm at fault too. i'm used to using super informal tones with people i see as my friends. (sa shld be nodding her head in agreement when she reads this) but sadly, not all these people are really my friends. they dont really understand what kinda of a person i am and just went ahead to make unfair judgements about how i behave. the more i miss you the more i would say i didnt. the more i'm thankful the more i wouldnt say it out. the more i'm feeling down the more i would say i'm fine and nth is wrong. the more i care the more i nonchalant i would be. the more angry i am the more i would appear not to be. but this time i shant! i'm pissed and i shall act pissed! that's why my genki friends nicknamed me zombie. that's why sa loves to comment that i'm living in my own world and enjoying it. though i know that they meant no harm at all... i rmb there were many conversations i had with sa that has me making evil comments about her and saying i dont care about her. her reply? "aiya, i know you care for me de la... you zui ying only...." well, i dunno. maybe she anyhow say and hit jackpot. but those words really made me feel glad that i've a friend that understands me so well.
you say if these 13 yrs of friendship cant withstand such trival matters such as a cancelled/infinitely postponed celebration, so be it. (and i have no idea why you people insist that the prob is with the cancelled celebration when i've repeated myself over and over again that it's not. but if that makes you feel better, go ahead and live in self-denial.) and if it takes someone 3 yrs plus to understand me, and another has already taken 13 yrs and all she could figure out is 'she doesnt like to talk much' then i'd say that these 13 yrs were simply wasted.
and if that's really the case, i have nth more to say...
*fans fans*

anyway, worked closing today... coz hongjie sprained his ankle and so i replaced him. thought monday would be damn slack. but i forgot this monday is a special monday. it's PH eve~! omg, ran around like a siaocharbo la... alamak... esp when qin went off to do duty... haha... the customer commented: you're so busy huh! like you're doing everything. lol... actually it's the customer's luck. hahaha! i took their orders, i served their orders, i sent their bill and i billed them. -_-" but i didnt host them... aww, wasted!
something funny qin told me. sunny and nicholas were in the storerm changing and when nic was changing his pants, sun opened the door. and just at this pt where nic was pant-less and the door opened, qin walked over. LOL... poor nic was half trying to pull his shirt down to cover whatever it can cover and half trying to yank the door shut but to no avail coz sun stuck his foot at the door it wldnt close! after that sun even asked qin what did she see and whether did she see the colour of nic's underwear. omg...
seems like i've not only passed my buayhiaobai virus to him, i've also passed my evil virus to him as well... HIAKHIAK...

Monday, October 23, 2006 { 5:11 AM }

this is getting fun..... *roll eyes*
rather lazy to type, coz i'm getting sleepy... but nvm, let the fun continue.... *jumps* and since some people loves to find fault... ok, i shall join in the fun then.... well, isnt YOUR mian well known to be easy going and accepting everything that comes her way and even though deep down she hated it and yet on the surface she appears to love it? *grins*
and before i say anything else, i have to REPEAT. i'm PISSED not because of the cancelled celebration but because I was blamed for not having MY OWN bdae celebration. now which part of the sentence you dont understand? and frankly speaking i dun give a damn about the celebration now and neither do i want any when i FIRST said 'it's ok, cancel it.' to you know who you are. and how many times must i swear that there wasnt a single ounce, nor even 0.0000000000000000000001% of pissed-ness in me when i said tt. coz i truly understand about having someone terminally ill in the family. (my grandpa passed away during cny...) you wldnt have the mood to celebrate anything, even if it's the president's birthday or something... and THAT'S why i said it's ok, cancelled it. but i have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA, why what i got in return was "YOU yourself never give us any days during first week wot (do i have to remind someone that someone exclaimed during someone else's bdae that she's VERY busy during my bdae week?).... YOU are like so busy lor..... YOU cannot expect US to go ard filling in your free time..." HAH, should I be feeling sorry in this case? 'was trying to be nice and all i got in return was a hissy fit.' i personally feel that this sentence best described what has happened then... no sense of guilt with my usage of words. and manz, those 3 sentences arh, i'll rmb them word for word TILL THE DAY I DIE. now do you finally understand why i'm so pissed now? wtf? i'm in the wrong to say it's ok to not celebrate my own birthday? and please.... it's very obvious that SOMEONE has got nothing to do with my bdae celebration thingy... so keep your f*cking stupid comments to yourself. you think what you heard was 100% of the entire story? duncha know that there's 2 sides to a coin? i dunno your intentions.... but you're doing nth but adding fuel to fire... AND I DUN WANNA KNOW UR INTENTIONS AS WELL... so there's no need to further explain yourself.
and about 'people do change'.... sorry to say but it's lack of understanding on your part. all the while i will speak in such bitchy cum sarcastic manner... since coz all girls are b*tches. just that the more guai girls need a 'b*tchier' girl to bring out the hidden 'b*tchiness' in them. (finding fault time...) since one particular friend of around 3 yrs whom i shall not name to not drag her into this SHIT understands this... why would another of 13 yrs dont? weird huh.... talking about CARE... wait, do care and understanding link? to me it does... *shrugs* but i dun think it would matter since it seems that all you wanna do now is to find fault. well, i'm so NOT implying anything... it's up to you to read my words... i cant do anything about tt... and i wont do anything about tt as well... none of my business. oh, and perhaps you dunno but it's not just me. every human has his or her limit. push past that limit and all you get would be 'KABOOM'. i am so truly sorry and apologise that my anger vessel can only contain 13 yrs of anger then. and what you peeps are experiencing now is 13 yrs of pent up frustrations. it's once in a lifetime chance i'd tell you. but then again, NOONE is asking you to experience it ok.
oh, and before i forgot.... when you wanna find fault, please please please... do not be that desperate so as to drag all my other friends in as well, through a stupid way and that is to state their name in CAPS. they have nothing to do with this shit ok. LEAVE MY FRIENDS ALONE. You are in no position to comment on anything about them coz you blardie dunno them and you dunno what comments they have said. to think that they had even asked me to keep my cool and stuff.... *shakes head* think about this particular issue separately and calmly and ask yourself if what you did was right and fair to them OK? and when i say 'you', it means i'm referring to ONE particular person. others who are not involved please keep your mouth shut (or fingers away from the keyboard) or even better, disappear from here.
and another issue, i've already said i was quoting someone.... and seriously speaking i cld only associate prick with a needle coz my dictionary of vulgarities is real thin. i'm not being sarca now. believe it or not it's up to you. and that phrase was the one and only sentence he came up with after i told him exactly what took place w/o any inference of my own. so what i did was conveniently used his words and also giving him copyright. tadaa... guess i have to apologise on his behalf now. since 'sorry' is what all you peeps want from me. but this apology is ONLY for that prick word.
and about babysitting... muahahahaha... this is blardie funny. does being forgetful makes one a baby? hmmm.... interesting idea. and did anyone tell you that it's rude to ignore people? i really wonder how does it feel to simply flip the phone shut when you see a qn in the sms.... does it feel gd to do tt? HMMMM.... and what's with the open inverted commas with headache and sick? once again, sorry but i have to say: keep ur f*cking comments to yourself when you dunno what's going on. you know nth abt my migraine prob which holds a record of 9 days straight. you know nth abt my period cramps which can confine me to bed for the whole day. you know nth abt my gastric problems i've been facing since pri sch which also holds a record of going without proper food for a wk or more. so what now? simple, f*ck off.
and another thing. i blog for my own pleasure. to some, blogging may be a way to let the whole world knows about what you're up to... in other words, AA. but to me... it's just for myself to rmb what has happened. just so happen that blogspot doesnt allow me to set it as private... and lj and od dun give nice skins i like. but not to worry, i'm wrking on my passwrd code already. and before you know it, my blog would no longer be accessible to you. and just in case you people dunno. i really hated it when some kaypoh people read stuff on my blog and come to me and BUGGED me, asking me what has happened and etc. if i really want people to know, i would have told the entire story on my blog ok. aint it obvious when i always kept mum and said nth happened? why the constant asking? and fine, in the end i said it. and what happened? complains on why i didnt announce it the very min it happened. and also it resulted in more qns and more kaypohing. sorry to say, but to me, this is not caring nor concern. it's invading my privacy. and what crap about it's raining coz we quarrelled and stuff. to you it's something amusing. to me it's just making fun of his name. i didnt say anything nor show any face doesnt mean i'm not put off by it ok. so before you asked about my attitude, think about yours first. i admit i have an attitude and it can be nasty at times. but i would only show it to those who need to see it.
and to me care and concern need not be said. people can 24/7 say that i care for you but maybe he or she wldnt give a damn abt you. i dont go ard asking people wat's up with their life coz i just dont! i dont like having people bugging into my life and that's why i dont bug others as well... this is the way i work. if you dont like it, there's nth i can do about it. for so many years i've tried to fit in and pyschoed myself into believing that we think the same way. now i noe that we dont and i'm too tired to try any further.... i enjoy alone-ness and guess i'm suited for that kinda life...

Sunday, October 22, 2006 { 2:13 AM }

lol... err... my pinky is laughing?
i would like to remind you that this is my blog and of course i would be blogging in my POV. if i'm not blogging in my POV then this wouldnt be my blog... and since i call this my blog i have to blog in my POV. get it?
however, if having no one else but me and only me to take the blame is what you want. then i shall be nice and this would be what you get.
it's ALL my fault....
i'm the greatest sinner...
the most insensitive freak.
happy?
*smiles* then you can exit now...
coz ignorance is bliss.
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if you think that i would always accept what you have to give, then you're so wrong... there's always a limit to everything, yeah?
but if you wanna think that you're always right and i'm the one having the hissy fit then by all means, go on. well, if that would make you less bothered... *shrugs* i wont go ard talking about appreciating sensitivity just to make someone else feel guilty. coz i believe more in practising what you preach. *smiles*

Saturday, October 21, 2006 { 1:47 AM }

keyboard is finally more normal now... although sometimes my enter key still gives me an = sign and etc....
anyway, my mood hit rock bottom recently... got damn pissed with literally everyone in my life. have no idea how come everyone decided to go against me together. miraculously, my mum didnt give me trouble this time.
first, got blamed for friends not being able to celebrate my birthday. i was like wtf? 'dont expect us to go filling in the spaces'. 'you yourself didnt give us any days for the first week'. 'you are like so busy can, only like a few days available'..... was not pissed at all when i suggested of cancelling the entire celebration. (my bday was on 7th, if you peeps cant rmb... ) but what did i get when i tried to give them an easy way out? blames... and a hissy fit. wth lor... so sorry ar, if i didnt rmb wrongly, SOME people aint free on my bday. and hence it was somehow settled on a thurs during the first week.... but i dunno what on earth happened, nothing happened on that thurs. do you expect me to sms people, asking them to celebrate my bday for me? HELLO? wakey wakey~! do you do that? of course not, right? so, first week gone. i didnt say anything at all... so during.. was it second week or wat. another asked me when i was free. what i did was to ask them when they're free. why? coz i cant expect them to come filling in my free spaces right? I HAVE TO GO FILL IN THEIR SPACES COZ I'M FREE-er! tadaa... but then, 'isnt it more impt to know when you're free coz it's ur bdae?' fine, since like that i choose lor... in the end still my fault. coz i only give like 2 or 3 days. machiam giving manager work schedule like that... it's ok, it's alright. nvm.... my fault, my fault. i shld have replied: i'm free the WHOLE WEEK. no school, no homework, no tests, no work, no nothing. sucha free person! *grins* then? second week gone. nvm... third week. another thurs chosen by them, but i'm not free. so let's postpone it. postpone until when? god knows... maybe HE doesnt even know too.... so why bother? just forget it la. and that's when the hissy fit erupted. talking about me choosing the days coz it's MY bday celebration? talking about i cant expect having them to fill up the spaces? this is so funny... my toes are laughing. of coz.... you're right, u noe! i cant expect having you peeps to come fill up the spaces, i have to go ard filling in your spaces. and it's YOU PEEPS celebrating my bdae, so of course you people gets to choose when YOU all wanna celebrate, right? whoa... how nice.
then it was like i've suddenly disappeared from your sight. amazing huh... missed one lesson coz i was sick. next lesson having a quiz. didnt bother to inform me. nvm... quiz was on something damn foreign to me. asked you what is it.
"aiya, you also nv come. i tell you you also dunno." then what did you do? turned towards ur other friend and discussed, copied.... quoting rw, WHAT A PRICK! smsed you asked you about quiz, nv bothered to reply. how nice...
to all concerned, if you dont like what you've read, please please please.... see that red square with a cross at the top right hand corner? yeah... move your cursor over there and click! i hope you wld have the intelligence to do so... i'm praying hard for you... *smiles*
and him... he's behaving weirdly... if there's such a word. asked him if he's coming online last night. and he replied no. at 2 plus, he came online. and when i text him, his reply was: i'm gg offline le, bye.
just what's wrong with the world?

Friday, October 20, 2006 { 12:13 AM }

thought my keyboard is back to normal...
but then again, i guess not....
anyway, went for steamboat at bugis with ting, benny and zhen.
alot of abalone mushrooms, shitake mushrooms, golden mushrooms...
yummy~!

well, you know what... i dunno what's up with you. but as according to rw,
YOU'RE A PRICK!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 { 11:05 PM }

i guess i'll just have to accept it...
i'm an outcast in a large group of friends...
it doesnt help when he has chose to abandon me now...
and neither does it help whetn my ketyboard is giving me problems

{ 12:58 PM }

having problems with my keyboard again!
damn it.....
my et j/ 5s m, keys are all stuck together.
meaning, when i type this sentence without correcting it
it becomes like this: whetn i teypet tehi5s 5setnetetncet witehouet corretceting ite

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 { 8:54 AM }

yeah, as what i've said in the previous entry, watched Silk last night. but was too freaked out to blog more about the movie coz i didnt want those friggin' images to get stuck in my head as i drift off to sleep. later they will evolve into one blardie nightmare. lol...
was on msn with him last night and it really didnt help when he commented that i've asked for it, watching it when i know that i'll become paranoid after watching ghastly movies. damn him... *growls*
ok, now back to the movies. this is a horror film with a seemingly deep scientific plot... but after watching the entire movie and thinking back about it. the main character, Hashimoto's aim, made the entire plot a senseless joke. his aim was to find out how to become a ghost and remain as one forever. He wants to become a ghost coz he was tired of living already. stupid right? and another stupid fact about him is that he carries a counter with him and from time to time you can see him pressing the counter. guess what? that is to keep track of how many times the his director lashed out at him and threatened to stop his experiments. his counter stopped at 744 when he thought he found out the true reason for the boy ghost's ability to remain as a ghost for so long. he thought it was hatred towards his mother for killing him. so he wanted his source of hatred to be the director for his 744 times of threats. and guess what? in the middle of the night, he went to find the director and stabbed him 744 times. -_-"
ok, then let's move on to another 'HUH' character on my list. Barbie Hsu as Suyan... or was it Suyuan? so sorry ar, she didnt remain on the screen long enough for me to remember her name properly. She got herself killed like within 15 minutes of the show and never return to the screen ever again. one 'whoa' thing about it is the she smokes in the movie! omg... i think if you want Barbie Hsu to be caught smoking in public, it would be impossible! LOL... dont think she would really smoke in real life bah.. smoking is bad for the skin, and judging by her vain-ness, for the sake of her skin, she wldnt smoke... well, just my opinion.
then let's move on to some funny stuff.... first it should be chen po-lin. hahaha... he was eating beef noodles mah.. then the mother ghost came and kill him. anyway, she emerged out of his beef noodles and strangled him to death. then the beef noodle stall owner was like: now eating noodles can also get you killed? that part was hilarious.... then another funny part was when the mother just died and became a ghost. coz in the movie, when you see the ghost, it wld see you and kill you. then tung was back facing the mother ghost as she stepped up behind him. and when he finally turned and faced the ghost, i was all prepared to like scream or wadeva la. but... the ghost fell on all fours and crawled out of the hospital at some superb speed like a... spider spirit or something. -_-" that one was so anti climax. then she knows how to catch free rides from a truck also... LOL.
then the part where the mother ghost went to kill the other female researcher is also quite scary. at first she was behind her and when the researcher found out, she immediately squat down and covered her eyes. (coz it was said in front that when u see the ghosts, they see you) then when she opened her eyes, the ghost's face was on the floor, right in front of her! alamak, i got so freaked out la. URGH~!
and the final part where tung's mother passed away and her ghost came back to the house was well, sad? coz at that point, everyone still thought that it was hatred towards his mother that kept the boy as a ghost, along with some strong radioactive waves his corspe was collecting or something. so tung thought that his mother hated him for keeping her on life supporting machine for so long and refused to let her die. then when the sun finally rose, his mother went over to the stove and wanna boil egg for him like what she always did for his breakfast before she got ill and then she vanished along with the egg she touched. it was then did tung realised it was love that kept the boy ghost in the world for so long...
hmmm.... not a bad movie. but not very very nice as well... somewhere in the middle i guess. heehee....

{ 2:29 AM }

watched silk with meiqin at tm gv just now...
omg... i regret it~!! should have watched world trade center or something instead...
now i dun dare to sleep...
he's back in malaysia... cannot like call him and force him to chat with me until i fall asleep...
msn doesnt help...
*wails*

Monday, October 16, 2006 { 3:38 AM }

he's gg back home for one week... sis's wedding...
hmm... one week...
one week....
only...
chey.
muahahahahaha....
gonna watch Silk tmr....
i'm determined to watch every single scene of it...
lol

Saturday, October 14, 2006 { 1:41 AM }

i got my new phone~! lalalala... Samsung E870 in Chic White. *jumps jumps*

Thursday, October 12, 2006 { 11:42 AM }

haiz... two quizzes today. mechanics of material and maths2.
maths2 quiz is ok.... finished it within like 5 minutes... after which i chiong all the way for MOM quiz. but i was still too late to sit with wx and rebec. damn! cannot copy~! *pengs* so you can guess it.... my mind was full of maths2 stuff for me to even rmb MOM formula properly. cfm get 0 lor... siao liao... CA is 30% leh....
but something happier. i'm quite sure both my Maths2 quiz can get full marks... *grins* SO? both my MOM quizzes cfm CHUI! *bangs head* i'm so gonna DIE!
anyway, went shopping with peggy... FINALLY! we went vivo city. most of the shops aint opened yet. i mean, most of the shop we wanna go aint open. well, to be more specific... CANDY EMPIRE AINT OPENED YET! *wails* ate beard papa's cream puff the very minute i got there at 3 plus. it was my breakfast, mind you. then we went to this place called Nichii Fashion City. Bought one black dress/tunic there. Nice! and also a belt from Mphosis. actually wanna buy a zebra leggings to go with the dress. but leggings aint for me. my shin is not skinny enough to look nice in leggings. damn my dance lessons... BOO! peggy bought one brown dress/tunic from Nichii too.... then after that we went Harbourfront centre for dinner at pastamania... actually peggy wanna buy another green dress and belt from Nichii too... but i stopped her. heehee... coz needa cfm with the rest before buying it for her mah... LOL... apart from the dress and belt which she really likes, also bought her a pair of wedges from Bata..... Ignore the brand, the wedges is nice! should be around 3 inches bah... Yeah! Her birthday present is finally settled and i can be sure that she loves them. *clap clap for Mianz's cleverness please*
after shopping at vivo city, went orchard cine. peg and mel are watching Silk thr. so we went over to find my KON. in case you dunno KON, he's the lion cum bear lookalike stuffed animal in Bleach into which Ichigo stuffed the modified soul into. got to this pushcart selling anime stuff. and the guy there was like: you like KON right? -_-" got so obvious meh? anyway, was real tempted to buy the KON in shinigami's clothes. so CUTE~! but 12 bucks for such a small plushie... hmm, i decided not to in the end. bought two KON's hp accessories, and one Zangetsu shikai keychain. darn cool can! then the guy damn lame lor... when i was looking at KON in shinigami's clothes right, he was like: you can take the clothes off him you know. then this version is not bad. see his eyes are closed. won't peep at you while you're changing. *BRR* i'm LAMED! BAH..... then he went around pulling everything with KON on it out for me to buy. siao liao... actually the pouch is cute. but too bad i dun use pouch. i'm always saying i want one, but in the end i'll chuck it aside and forget about using it. then we went to More Than Words and saw the cute figurine of Jack in Nightmare Before Christmas. Those kinda figurine where you put in your car coz the head is attached to the body through a spring, you know? super cute! peggy bought two for Mel's car actually. in the end she gave me one. heehee... thx, peg! maybe i shall really get Sun to put in his 'Er Lao Po'..... or maybe not. i shall keep it. muahahahahahaha....
after buying all these, we went to the HK cha can ting for Mel's dinner. ate french toast and milk tea there. the french toast is like... super thick la. and super sweet coz got ALOT of honey. omg, not very nice lor... but the milk tea is not bad. coz i like milk tea mah... lol....
then peg told me something darned funny. some SHORT guy she met online saw my pic taken with her in our hall 2 hostel room TOILET and thinks that i'm hot. i was like wtf??? goodness can. I'm cold, not hot. ... ... *crows flying past* oh, tt's lame... sorry....
saw clara at city hall when i was taking train back to boonlay. it's been so long since i last saw her. she's having 3 weeks study break now. and by the time my first paper starts, her exams has ended... damn! my first paper is 16th nov and her last paper is 10th lor! URGH~!
peg finally got her 100 days with Mr Arrogant back from her friend... so i shall go to watch it like, NOW. *grins*

Wednesday, October 11, 2006 { 8:30 PM }

exams in less than 5 weeks....
finally started to clear up my desk and decided to study....
somehow, only the two maths modules seems more appealing...
damn it...
physics is totally not for me lor.
but no matter what, i have to make sure i study the other 3 physics modules too...
shucks...
perhaps it's exam stress...
perhaps it's menstrual stress
or perhaps it's simply cramps...
i literally went bonkers on him last night...
luckily he has learnt to accept the fact that he has to do some pacifying once in a while as well...
and mind you... it's really once in a while for him...
i'm such an understanding girl....
oh crap, dont you dare roll your eyes!
back to my maths.... maths test tmr.... shld be able to finish my reviewing... and i really mean reviewing... somehow has a faint idea of what it is...
mechanics of material test tmr as well... dont think i can finish studying... and i really mean studying... didnt know what has happened in this modules since god knows when.....
damn it!
can some kind souls cum physics guru help me out here?

{ 1:06 AM }

he was late for work today... supposed to start work at 12. he woke up at 1130... muahahahaha... and sadly, he doesnt live in tampines like me. well, if i were to start work at 12 and wake up at 1130, i would be late too... not to speak of living in boonkeng. by the time he got into a cab, it was already past 12. muahahahaha... funny.
and at night when he goes home, he fell asleep on the bus and missed his stop. *laughs madly* he is so suay can! buay tahan....
and he's gg to forum again on fri. but dunno if it's for the whole day or just half a day. freaking haolian about it coz he was specially asked for. URGH~! thickskinned....

i miss having white bread with nutella all of a sudden.... and instant noodles with mushroom ball, pork ball, egg, crabstick, and even chicken franks... and pasta with mushroom sauce..... and potato salad...
arh, i missed hall 2 blk 6 level 2 room 104! *wails*

Tuesday, October 10, 2006 { 4:47 PM }

woke up with something that resembles period cramp today. guess my period is coming and that's why i was feeling so miserable....
but it's ok. i found a new cure for my PMS, THE ghost.
hahahahaha...
ok, i'm being random... as if that didnt sound random.
why the ghost?
coz....
only Gui3 likes to kiss you...
so he gotta be a ghost then...
ok, pardon my randomness... just ignore me then.
*grins*
i wanna go shopping... but what to buy? i dunno....

oh, and i forgot to say, he saw FIR at forum ytd. omg, so heng can! actually it's not luck. FIR was supposed to lunch there in the afternoon and that's why he was asked to go over to help out in the morning... FIR leh.... but it's ok lor... just see them eating mah... nothing much... *sulk* Do i sound as if i've having a problem with super sour grapes?

Monday, October 09, 2006 { 10:25 PM }

i dunno why....
but i just feel miserable...
exams in 5 weeks time...
FIVE weeks...
shucks!

{ 1:05 AM }

weird...
he's like super pissed today.
but for what reason?
i have no idea at all...
he's testing my patience....

anyway, richie bought me a blackforest cake today.
yummy~~! =)

Saturday, October 07, 2006 { 11:33 PM }

my birthday today....
lousy birthday.
was supposed to go out with peg, sa, pq and sheryl.
in the end we didnt coz they cannot make it.
so i ended up sleeping at my gran's place. how happening!
at night, met renwei for dinner at fish n co. i guess this is the only happier thing for today. he treated me to a seafood platter for two! =) yummy....
but there's one thing i have to say. he's a blind bat.... he cannot find fish n co~! *faints*
anyway, i finished up all the squids. and he finished up... most of the rice. so i win actually.... oh nvm!
after tt went to meet him. his answer was: i don't know. just treat it as i've never said anything ok?
what else can i do? first he chose to say such a thing on my birthday. then he chose to shun it. i really dunno what he's up to...
lastly, happy birthday to me...
and thanks to all those peeps who rmb my birthday!
esp Ice! she's the first one to sms me. heehee...
and him, who stayed with me till past 12... yeah, tho he pulled such a sick trick on me in the end...
and also thanks to the last one who smsed me... zhenzhen... hahaha... yeah yeah, if you cant be the first, then you shall be the last right. stupid AA guy...
thanks to peg, zq, sheryl, sa and pq for the birthday present! Just Me by Paris Hilton. woohoo~!

oh, and i got a new hamham from peg. i've decided to name her. Brownie~! now i have a brownie and a donut... sounds yummy, huh! =)

Friday, October 06, 2006 { 12:48 AM }

went to the zoo with ting and mq. zhenzhen was supposed to be joining us but he pangseh us AGAIN.... oh wells... waited at amk station for 1 and a half hour for them to arrive lor... sian... dunno why eelee told me it's one and a half hr to reach amk by mrt when it's clearly within 1 hour. -_-" me reaching earlier than expected and them arriving later than expected resulted in one long wait. sheesh!
it's ok... made our way to the zoo eventually. saw my kangaroos! they're so cute! boing! boing! boing! and the emu... prettier versions of ostrichs. hahaha... ting's cousins. and we also saw... otters! so cute~~~~! and we were damn lucky to be just in time for their feeding time. hahaha... all the otters scrambling after the dreadlock haired zookeeper for the fishes... and finishing them up asap in order to get another one. hahahaha! i wanna meet Pedro the Otter! it understands recycling.... muahahaha... i'm getting high over otters. wanna see penguins, but that area was cordoned off! omg... cannot see my penguins and sealions! so sad!!! and my polar bears as well... they refused to take a dip... URGH~!
next time we go, we must take photos! esp with the otters. heehee....
after coming out of the zoo, we ate ben and jerry's. mq and i shared a 3 flavours mix and match. heehee... my NY super Fudge! yummy... and i also bought a berry nice smoothie. but the banana spoilt the taste, yuck! then after ben and jerry's we went tamp genki for dinner. hahaha! as usual, beef kimchi soup! yummy~! and a hana sashimi... hokkigai rocks! hahaha... mq loves kaijiki toro. ting loves hamachi. hahahaha... in the end i got another hokkigai sashimi. heehee... it's so nice. both akagai and hokkigai are shellfish. but hokkigai is much much nicer. =)

anyway, we quarrelled again last night. now our current situation is... well, i dunno... trying hard to chat normally and acting as though we didnt quarrel last night, however, we both knew we did quarrel last night. this is so complicated huh!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 { 9:33 PM }

changed my blogskin once again....
thought this skin relates to me, that's why i decided to use it...
oh wells, whatever...

oh yeah, i forgot to blog about this ytd.... while we were walking around at ms, we saw a mickey mouse and minnie mouse balloon. guess what he did? he pointed to the balloons and exclaimed: hey, your ah gong and ah ma! -_-"
so tempted to whack him can....
i dont look mousey!

{ 2:26 AM }

went out with him for movie at ms.... jas asked me to pass ting the princess hours vcd, so i went down to GMS(if you know what it stands for) to look for her. and guess what? rich is also there... -_-" siao liao....
watched Rob-B-Hood. heehee... funny show la... some parts were HILARIOUS. I love the Nic Tse and Daniel Wu part. muahahahahahaha.... too bad i cant hear Nic speak in cantonese.... haiz...
after that, we went back to his house to get his uniform to return my godpa... saw his sis's hammies... 3 dwarfs and 1 normal hamsters. the beeg one bites... ouch!
met godpa and the rest of the kitchen staff for supper at tampines 107. after that, mq, ch and yq also joined us. 11 of us, i think we drank 11 bottles(or more) of tiger beer... whoa... surprisingly, i felt nothing at all... guess it's because i'm not on an emopty stomach like that time andrew's last day...

and he scared me rather badly today... perhaps i've overdone it.... but it's alright. i'm thankful nothing bad happened.... don't bother asking if you dont understand what on earth i'm talking about. i'm just being random...
and it's >1mth already....
BOO!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006 { 2:36 AM }

Hmm... nic didnt work today. sianz... no fun.
and did i say that my godpa won lottery(again)? 4k... whoa~!
and i have to say, i did something i didnt expect myself to do today...
oh wells...
nvm...
i'm being random yet again....
i'm praying for you...

Monday, October 02, 2006 { 1:32 AM }

he says that i look like a mouse. meaning, i have THE mousey look... then i asked mq the same qn. her immediate reply was: oh yeah! mouse! eh... more like mickey mouse la...
isnt mickey mouse a mouse? omg...
then renwei says i look elfish...
great so now i'm a mousey elf then...
how cute~!
-_-"

just being random...
'can you gimme a kiss?'
'NO!'
'then can i force a kiss on u?'
... ... *crows flew past*
URGH... ignore me, i'm just being random...

Sunday, October 01, 2006 { 1:18 AM }

whoa... super busy today. we did OT until like.... 1140 lor.. omg.. and poor kenneth missed his last train AND last bus. he lives in bukit panjang, btw. and he only has 15 bucks left. lol... in the end jh and i lent him another 17 bucks. 32 bucks... should be enough to pay for his cab fare home la...
and zhenzhen is getting irritating la. coz i was dragging him to go buy candies with me. then as we walked by sun, he was like: we're just going to buy candies... you dont think too much arh... -_-"
then during closing, he went to sun and started talking about rio. omg... he was like: how ar, got rival in love. but nvm la... u win already mah... hor?
URGH~! so tempted to strangle him.... *growls*